A Thought

It didn’t hurt anymore because it didn’t matter. Overtime, that thing I don’t wanna remember become meaningless. Nothing worthy in there. I am trying to achieve my dreams, and what it hurts is when I feel my dreams so far away. I always know i wanna be a bigger people. My dream is bigger than marriage and marriage didn’t equal achievement


Now I See

It is funny when
I look back and see
there are many things I don’t understand before
Now I know how Peter Pan felt
about fear of growing up,
about the sadness that sneaks out inside
when looking into the window
of the kids that growing up
Feeling left behind
Everyone says you are wrong
You are unrealistic and insane
So you better went to your dreamland
Yours made up imagination
Where you shelter in your isolation
At some point, you feel lonely and hope someone will join you
So you can have fun together
But no one comes
You still don’t want to let them be right
So you fly with your magic dust and those happy thoughts
Teasing all human walking on earth
You are free but at the same time not belong to anywhere
You are happy but at the same time sad and lonely
Now I understand perfectly well why Peter Pan didn’t want to grow up
why Mulan went to the war

Cloudy Mind

What can fill your emptiness?
When you feel so hollow inside
Your mind goes blank
You can’t remember time
Your mind wonder
Makes your feet take you
No destiny
Just an empty space
Undefined states
Tears can’t clear the sight
Think can’t help the cloudy mind
So what else there to help you?

The Kindest Soul

The kindest soul is the children’s soul

With their innocent eyes and vulnerable words

Honesty is their code but then they get hurt

Liars are everywhere, take over their naivety

Their purity was stained by the cruelness of hungry heart

I want to shelter their pure, kind, naive heart

So please always be true to yourself

Keep that little kid living in you

Happy New Year 2018

Don’t broken the silence, let me enjoy this moment

The fresh atmosphere of the night air

About going to the end of this year

I am glad I make it through

My heart is full of gratitude

It’s the end of 2017

The mark of my turning point

Best Thing Ahead

In the middle of busy and boring day

Your mind starts to wander


To the memory lane

Going autopilot to the time when it was sweet

But then you get caught up too much in the past

Busy in your head

You’re dealing with the past

Anger and hate come alive again

Feeling it was unfair, about something happened back then

The wound still unhealed, it is still bleeding

You feel the pain again

It shouldn’t be that way, I should have, If only I could turn back the time

Forms of regrets and not letting go yet

Make you restless

Unrealize you’re losing the present

So then, everytime my mind starts to take a flight backward

I tell myself, no thanks, I don’t want to remember

Then somehow I feel better

Because the best thing is always laying ahead

My Own Story

I will make my own story

A really good one

You don’t have to see my struggle

Don’t have to understand my down time

Don’t have to know what I’ve been going through

You are only an outsider, you don’t know me, and you don’t need to

It’s unnecessary

All you need to see is how sparkling my life zone is

How I am so lucky, got everything I want to

Always smiling and never cry

Make you envy me until you wish you were me

On My Own

It was white and breeze

Pleasant weather

The wind blowed, full of hopes

Time flies fast, memories fade

I am happier than ever now

I am getting used to your absence

And you missed many special moments in my life

You were never there, and I become more self dependent

I can feel the freedom to be on my own