Change

Too focus on the scar inside

Didn’t realize time has passed

Why dealing with the pass for too long

Get a life, living now

For present will be the pass

There’s nothing we can do about it

Time will run out, always

The clock is always ticking

It’s something out of our control

Choose to make a memory that will make you happy

Don’t enjoy the burden, focus on what you want

Be kind. Be happy. Life is not forever

Celebrate it. Don’t take it for granted

Show your gratitude

Let’s change for the better

Now is the time for revolution

Never Walk Alone

Smile, touch

Laughters, shared dreams

It was all about us

Promises, trust

Faith, betrayed

Lost, breaking down

Who’s gonna hold your hand?

Just don’t put your hope on the feather

Not again

For it can’t bear their own weight

But remember

You never walk alone

Reminiscing

Maybe it has to be that way

Feeling numb for some days

Before it’s getting okay

It’s over but there’s still many traces on the floor

And sometimes I still found myself

Reminiscing the old good days

But I’m okay

I’m going to be great

I just need time to be on my own

Dream Land

It’s cool to keep playing cool and untouchable

But I feel lonelier than ever after that

Crying by my own self is still the ritual

Being true to self is still the hardest part

The most honest people is the kid

Because they haven’t learn how to lie

I love them by the heart

Apart of me want to be forever a kid

Go to the neverland or disneyland

Living the dream life

Unknown

Tonight in the memory land

I took a walk that I don’t want to remember

Unknown

Without a reason, without a purpose

It reappeared again in my mind

The regret and the questions 

Still leave me hanging

Still leave me asking

Nagging me

But I said it many times before

I’ve done

Maybe bad things happen so you can learn

Maybe it got hurt so you can grow

Anyway the sadden thing is not betrayed by other

But betrayed by your ownself

I’ve seen myself trying to heal this wound

But the next days I saw it started all over again

Stabbing my scar, open up the wound

Digging again, trying to find the answer

Then wondering, why it still matters?

Why it’s still hard to let go?

I don’t even sure, is it mental disorder?

Or just the lack of integrity, lack of discipline

I may not live long enough to think for these unnecessary things

Count things that matter

Learn to make your own miracle

I’ve done

There was a feeling which is hard to be described because I can’t verbalize it, too overwhelming. It was sad and still hurt, writing it down meant that I’ve to take the journey to the memory land for once again. 

Today, I read the writing that can speak up my feeling very well, like a perfect fit. So I write this poem back to whom the writing always inspires me. I believe she will become wiser and wiser everyday because she always reflect inside

After it passed then I finally realized

It was over but it wasn’t love 

And sadly it was never

It was a delusion

Made up in my mind

At that time, everyhing was beautiful

Remember it now, I feel like a fool

I’ve damaged my self for too much

Regreting is never about losing you

It’s about betraying my own self

I hope it’s okay now

Because I stop digging the hole

I’ve done

I’ve learnt

Be Honest

Can I figure it out?

Let me run and fly

Jump and fall free 

But never broken

Let me sing in the voice that everyone can hear

Let me sing a word that tell my story

Sing my heart out

Do you mind telling me your name?

Do you even know my real name?

Is it even matter?

What if I am telling you my dreams?

Do you have the same dreams?

I want to scream out loud, burn my energy

Breaking in to the tears and let the weight leave me alone

Let me claim myself, let the happiness comes in to my life

To be honest, I don’t want to get lost forever

Free

Smile, let me feel ease in my heart

Dancing around, let me celebrate this day

I am free now

Break free from the jail, not your prisoner anymore

I can shake it off, grow again after been death for so long

No need for your permission, which always been so unreasonable

I even can hear my own voice now

And you can’t put me down

I take back the power

Melancholic Friday

It’s been a while since the last time I wrote in here

Today’s a melancholic Friday

The memories rushed, the feelings came

And I feel the warmth in my heart

All the stories that left behind

Some to be kept and to be remembered

Some stories better to be left that way, untouched

And I miss those times when I clueless

Sharing laugh and tears all together with my besties

We hated those hard time

But now looking back, we did grow stronger

Never thought I’m gonna miss that moment

It’s a beautiful piece to be saved in the memories land

To be played back when you feel a little bit cold outside

All kindness, all loves, and all the connections we formed

Give the sense of strong feeling

Now I remember the way back home

And I feel loved

 Thanks for all the people that always be there for me

To remind me that I have it, that I worth it

I feel it, happiness

🙂

This Present

Happiness, dream

Emotion, opinion

Different word said

Confusion came in

Doubt always stay

Fear appears

Worry that I am unable to be happy

What if tomorrow never comes?

All I have is this moment

This present