By the way, I still miss you
It’s been a long time, isn’t it?
How can I put it in to the words
I don’t even dare to ask how you are
You cut it so badly, dear
I have nothing to say
If you can only see
All the door are opened
If only you come
I will welcome you
It’s impossible for you
not to see
all the doors are opened
But you just don’t
want to come, do you?
I know, no problem
I’m waiting here
not expecting you to come
just want to see
Who will really care at the end
I found the old journals I wrote 3 years ago
I read it all again and was struck by the words
So lively, so energizing
Full of plans and hope
So alive, it made me wonder
What had happened to me
Now I often feel so low, full of doubt
Those writing kind of reminding me
I can be whatever I want to be
Can’t I have a real friend?
At least for once
Want to have someone to talk to
Why I have to?
Lost and hope
I am nowhere
Lucky me
My sanity still keeps it safe
But sometimes
I just want to shut down
I used to be on my own
One year last
The event in the middle on the way had changed me
To be someone I am not
Now everyone forgets me
Suddenly I have no one to look up to
Have no name in everyone’s minds
Felt like a star once but then abandoned
It was really challenging
Made you questioning your self worth
But I’m okay
Yes it’s a lonely place
But hey let’s see
I’m starting to find myself back
I feel the freedom and it’s comfortable to stand on my own for once again
It’s the moment of celebration
To find the peace inside
Only me and my dream
I enjoy my night riding alone
It’s so pleasant that I forget why I need to feel abandoned
It have been so long not to be on my own
Let all the questions forgotten
I don’t crave the answer anymore
I’m going to forget you until I forget why I need to
Let me wandering
Get away from the crowd
Get lost inside and find my soul
Detach from all the troubles
Too much emotion, messy world
Let’s take the moment, calm down the heart
Because I believe it will happen
Someone someday
Will gonna love me the right way
Will be there without me asking him to stay
To show me how true love is
A kind and sincere connection
Will be there forever
Viladev 