I’ve seen many wonders happened
No curiosity left your wondering mind
Envy is sneaking around the insecure soul
I’ve been there for many times
It’s not fun at all
Let me feel the peace
Don’t compare me with anyone else
Or better off, leaving me alone
I’m always on my own by the way
Too focus on the scar inside
Didn’t realize time has passed
Why dealing with the pass for too long
Get a life, living now
For present will be the pass
There’s nothing we can do about it
Time will run out, always
The clock is always ticking
It’s something out of our control
Choose to make a memory that will make you happy
Don’t enjoy the burden, focus on what you want
Be kind. Be happy. Life is not forever
Celebrate it. Don’t take it for granted
Show your gratitude
Let’s change for the better
Now is the time for revolution
Smile, touch
Laughters, shared dreams
It was all about us
Promises, trust
Faith, betrayed
Lost, breaking down
Who’s gonna hold your hand?
Just don’t put your hope on the feather
Not again
For it can’t bear their own weight
But remember
You never walk alone
Maybe it has to be that way
Feeling numb for some days
Before it’s getting okay
It’s over but there’s still many traces on the floor
And sometimes I still found myself
Reminiscing the old good days
But I’m okay
I’m going to be great
I just need time to be on my own
It’s cool to keep playing cool and untouchable
But I feel lonelier than ever after that
Crying by my own self is still the ritual
Being true to self is still the hardest part
The most honest people is the kid
Because they haven’t learn how to lie
I love them by the heart
Apart of me want to be forever a kid
Go to the neverland or disneyland
Living the dream life
Tonight in the memory land
I took a walk that I don’t want to remember
Unknown
Without a reason, without a purpose
It reappeared again in my mind
The regret and the questions
Still leave me hanging
Still leave me asking
Nagging me
But I said it many times before
I’ve done
Maybe bad things happen so you can learn
Maybe it got hurt so you can grow
Anyway the sadden thing is not betrayed by other
But betrayed by your ownself
I’ve seen myself trying to heal this wound
But the next days I saw it started all over again
Stabbing my scar, open up the wound
Digging again, trying to find the answer
Then wondering, why it still matters?
Why it’s still hard to let go?
I don’t even sure, is it mental disorder?
Or just the lack of integrity, lack of discipline
I may not live long enough to think for these unnecessary things
Count things that matter
Learn to make your own miracle
There was a feeling which is hard to be described because I can’t verbalize it, too overwhelming. It was sad and still hurt, writing it down meant that I’ve to take the journey to the memory land for once again.
Today, I read the writing that can speak up my feeling very well, like a perfect fit. So I write this poem back to whom the writing always inspires me. I believe she will become wiser and wiser everyday because she always reflect inside
After it passed then I finally realized
It was over but it wasn’t love
And sadly it was never
It was a delusion
Made up in my mind
At that time, everyhing was beautiful
Remember it now, I feel like a fool
I’ve damaged my self for too much
Regreting is never about losing you
It’s about betraying my own self
I hope it’s okay now
Because I stop digging the hole
I’ve done
I’ve learnt
Viladev 